This feeling has come again
Right on schedule
The empty feeling.
The feeling that nothing matters
Anymore.
Nothing has mattered since I left
Each day and each night
I only wished to be back there
With you and all our friends
I ignored things around me
Things from the present
And I focused only on the past
I never noticed when you moved on
Moving forward
While I moved back
The two of us moving farther apart
Until the distance was too great
To overcome.
My heart almost died when I realized
How far apart we were
I lost all hope that we could ever
Be close again.

Without hope, I fought a losing battle
I tried to bring us close again
But only succeeded in pushing us
Farther apart
I gave up,
Spending many nights alone,
Crying
Thinking of what I had lost
Memories I didn't even know I had
Flooded my mind
Bringing on a new tide
Of salty tears.

I wipe the tears away
And make the decision
To try one last time.
I seal the envelope
And prepare to send
My heart to you again
In hopes that you'll respond.

~102600~