Another two months pass
I thought you were gone.
Gone for good.
You hadn't visited me,
Unexpected
In the middle of the night
Like you used to,
Until now.
And with you,
That feeling returns
In the pit of my stomach
As strong as ever.
Tears form in my eyes
On the verge of falling.
Crying because of you
Yet again.
As much as I want to,
As much as I need to,
I just can't seem to let you go.
I wish I could.
Being able to
Would help me keep that promise.
So many things I could tell you
If it weren't for my promise
Instead I lay here
Thinking about you once again
Punishing myself for ruining
What we had,
That perfect friendship.
Suffering in silence.

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